What happens when the tears no longer fall
When my soul's lost
Does out of sight mean out of mind
When I'm dead and gone
How long would you mourn
When the well runs dry
Will you no longer dream
Am I now just a figment
Of your imagination
Out of sight out of mind
Is the story meant for me
What used to be reality
Isn't even a memory
As I cry out from the cosmos
My voice is lost
Images become dust
Blown far away in the wind
No hard copies to look forward to
Because at 1st the pain was too tough
As days pass and she no longer asks
It's easier to go on
Faded memories, blurred visions, unwanted dreams
Thankfully you let go as new life abounds you
What you perceived would haunt you
Only lasts a few days
Instead of praying to your saviour
You continue to run from his name
No sanctification or justification
You refuse to accept the blame
Another one bites the dust
And you fail once again...
Kitty cat with 9 lives, you try once again
Wondering if you'll ever loose
So you continue to snooze... Wake up!!

composed by Keyan 7/21/08 10:11pm

Now i realize to stay sane i have to learn to ignore a child when they ask the same question you just answered over & over again...

Like, "Are we there yet?"... PATIENCE, I'm working on it!

I am a former hurdler... I ran in high school and college and competed at the USATF Junior Nationals. I know how tough it is to stay on top and how injuries can derail a season. One thing I will say, and always have is... "Why didn't we know about this so-called injury sooner?" I originally thought... hmmm, maybe its a "doping" scandal that they were afraid would be revealed after the competition was over and they didn't want him to have to be tested??? With all that's gone on in this sport over the last 4 to 5yrs its highly likely! But one thing is for sure... if the Silver medalist from the last 2 Olympic games, Terrance Trammell, hadn't faltered that day too and the current world record holder in the 110m hurdles from Cuba, Dayron Robles, as well as the other top American hurdler, David Oliver, all made the final... WOW... that's a lot of pressure and uncertainty that Liu Xiang might not even have placed in the medals at these Beijing Olympic games!!! Either way it's odd and sad that they never made this injury public prior to him bowing out. And I also think that from what I saw, it didn't look like a legitimate injury... he walked into the tunnel JUST FINE after he pulled out... sorry... I'm just stating the obvious!!!

How lovely is this night
Cool air, pretty smile
And the bright moonlight
It's your night, your light
I bask in your glory
I anxiously wait
While you share your story
Tragic to many yet I'm over exude
As this harvest moonlight sets the mood.
My minds takes you in with every word
Dropped from thy lips
I anticipate the moment
To gain access to your soul
I love the pain you speak
It mirrors my own
You tell it so beautifully
I feel I've finally gained control
The demon that haunts us both
Drowns in our company
Under this new light, this moonlight...
We finally conquer them all
I hesitate no more and reveal my true self
You do the same and promise no more games...
Our past lives were lame
Now new lives we claim
We laugh together, then cry together
Then we laugh once again

Composed by Keyan 7/12/08 @8:30pm

So in the wake of the untimely death of comedian Bernie Mac (may he rest in peace), I received a text message from my boy Sal. He notified me early that morning of his passing. We both were shocked, but knew that he had been battling a lung ailment for some years now, which obviously didn't help matters in his recent battle with Pneumonia.

He made the following statement and the at the same time posed this question to me....

"Yea. At least he was able to accomplish summin b4 he left - ever think bout what u want to do b4 ya time is up?"

I text him back with the following...

"Not in the literal sense... But I do have fears of death recently and realizing that my life is not where id like it to be! Nor have I blazed a lasting, decent memory!

Then he responded back in a direct, but profound way....

"Well, u need to get to work on ya experiences - but life here in America makes it very difficult to not need to focus a lot on chasin bread, its almost like u cant even b happy if your broke or poor, u can, but, its not real - b4 i came bk hm, i never focused on getting the dough, i really regret that, so over the last 2yrs i had to develop that attitude, fuck LOVE, a bitch dont care bout u if u broke"

So i pondered and responded with my own life experiences...

"Yea... ur right! Now lookin at [insert name here] I see that its always about money. She wouldnt be fuckin w this dude if he was not willing to take care of her... Even if it dont work, she wont ever date a broke guy again... SAD, but i understand!

Did you get the note i left on your pillow
It said, "I love you & I miss you already"
It's the little things like that
I know you enjoy

Did you get the flowers I sent you
The card said, "Just because your beautiful"
I know how much you like Lilies

Did you get my voicemail
It said, "Meet me at my place at 7
I got that bottle of wine you love
Dinner's served at 8"

I have something special planned tonight
To show you my heart
And to share my soul
This plan includes you & me
Together forever no longer separate
Our souls become one

We'll dance to your favorite song in the garden
And under the full moon I'll get down on one knee
And ask you to marry me...

Did you get my messages cuz i left really early...
I know the traffic was bad today maybe you were late...
Did you get my voicemail cuz i know your receptions bad at work...
I just got home & turned on the news to see a fire today
A small apartment in the east village went up in flames...
I called your job to see if the flowers had arrived
They say you hadn't made it in yet today...

I called you another time & it went straight to voicemail

So sadly i sat at home wondering what I did wrong
Until i got a message when i woke up the next morning...

It said I'm sorry Sir but she didn't' make it
It was your building that went up in flames
He said you never felt a thing as they found you
Still in bed, my favorite sleepy head
May you always rest in peace.

composed by Keyan 6-3-08 @10:25pm

Your failures are your own... Know them, learn from them, own them, turn from them, progress forward as new life abounds you. Claim victory as God is always with you!

~Keyan Scott

It takes patience to keep a nagging wife; fortune to keep an ambitious wife; four eyes to keep a pretty wife.